首頁 英文愛藏:天使吻過那片海

第5章 在行路中遇見自己 (4)

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At last, under the sky’ s bowl, I stood at the crest breathless, the hill solid, tangible under my feet. So often I had seen it elusive in the distance. Now I was there. Yet even as I reached my goal, it began to slip away from me. Straight ahead, beyond more miles of woodland, I could see another hill, somewhat higher, somewhat longer, cows grazing placidly on its cleared slope a summit hinged with green. Mysterious, full of promise, it was a hill I should never reach. Yet, in my old longing, that was where I wished I might be, on that farther hill. But even as I looked at it. I sensed that beyond there would be another hill, and beyond that yet another, beyond Mt. Battie, beyond Maine, beyond the miles. Even if I kept going round the world there would always be another hill. And I knew then, suddenly and overwhelmingly, that one could never reach the last hill.

緬因州北部的秋天,景色迷人。當黃昏降臨的時候,晴朗的天空飄著的雲朵為大地投下片片濃陰,仿佛夏天還沒有過去。緬因州位於沃爾多博拉以西12英裏,在12歲到14歲的3年時間裏,我每年都去那裏度假,因為那裏有幾個以印第安語命名的男童夏令營。然而,我現在已經不願常常回憶那些久遠的往事了。

我站在曾經是棒球場的土丘上,它的右方是一片百年橡樹林,我們曾常常在這片樹林的附近舉辦篝火晚會。在酷熱的8月,我曾多少次站在這座土丘上,遙望蔥鬱樹林後麵的康登山脈!那大片的原野一直伸向地平線輪廓清晰的巴蒂山,中途穿過小山和樹林,好似18世紀時形象鮮明的銅版畫。日暮時分,輪廓變得模糊的巴蒂山籠罩在一片藍色的暮靄之中時,我們就圍在老橡樹四周舉辦篝火晚會。

許多年後,棒球場四周較遠的地方又長出了許多高矮不等的白楊樹、白樺樹,還有長著斑點的榿木,這片樹林擋住了視野,曾經種在那裏的樹木早已被砍伐了。在這片透明的天空下,我們現在已經看不見什麽,除了那些參差不齊的樹冠。巴蒂山已經消失在遠方,天空也披上了一層寒冷的色彩。