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第18章 享受生活中的每一刻Experience Life

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我懂得什麽是欲望、爭鬥、憂慮和絕望。我總是超負荷地工作。回望我的往昔生活,就如同戰場一般,到處是夢想與希望的殘垣斷壁。這場不利於我的戰爭使我傷痕累累,甚至早衰。我將生命之水一飲而盡,包括那些沉澱物,而她們隻是淺嚐了杯口的泡沫而已。我知道的東西她們永遠也不能得知,我看到的事物,她們永遠無法目睹。女人的眼睛隻有被淚水衝刷過,才會有更廣闊的視野,才能在世界範圍內有形同姐妹的朋友。在充滿艱辛曲折的社會大學中,我悟出了一條養尊處優的女人們無從學到的哲理。我學會了生活在今天,而不無聊地透支明天的煩惱。正是那種對未來的擔憂使我們膽怯。因為經驗告訴我:每當我非常害怕時,上天就會賦予我力量和智慧,於是,我不再膽怯。那些小小的煩惱再也無法影響我的行為——當你親眼目睹了整座幸福的大廈在你麵前轟然坍塌後,你就不會在意那些諸如仆人忘了在洗手盆下放墊子,廚師不慎把菜湯弄灑之類的瑣事。我學會了不對人們寄予過高的期望,因而,我仍能從那些並不真誠的朋友和愛搬弄是非的人那裏獲取快樂。另外,我還具有了幽默感,因為此前的許多事情都使我大喜大悲。如果一個女人在困難麵前不再歇斯底裏,仍能保持幽默,那就沒有什麽能傷害她了。我不會為經曆過的艱辛懊悔不已,因為在經曆的過程中,我觸摸到生活中的方方麵麵。它值得我為它付出一切。

I have known want and struggle and anxiety and despair.I have always had to work beyond the limits of my strength.As I look back upon my life,I see it as a battlefield strewn with the wrecks of dead dreams and broken hopes and shattered illusions—a battle in which I always fought with the odds tremendously against me,and which has left me scarred and bruised and maimed and old before my time.I have drunk the cup of life down to its very dregs.They have only sipped the bubbles on top of it.I know things they will never know.I see things to which they are blind.It is only the women whose eyes have been washed clear with tears who get the broad vision that makes them little sisters to all the world.I have learned in the great University of Hard Knocks a philosophy that no woman who has had an easy life ever acquires.I have learned to live each day as it comes and not to borrow trouble by dreaming the tomorrow.It is the dark menace of the future that makes cowards of us.I put that dread from me because experience has taught me that when the time comes that I so fear,the strength and wisdom to meet it will be given me.Little annoyances no longer have the power to affect me.After you have seen your whole edifice of happiness topple and crash in ruins about you,it never matters to you again that a servant forgets to put the doilies under the finger bowls,or the cook spills the soup.