At any rate,my love for Rachel remained unrequited.We graduated from high school,she went on to college,and I joined the Army.When World War II engulfed us,I was sent overseas.For a time we corresponded,and her letters were the highlight of those grinding,endless years.Once she sent me a snapshot of herself in a bathing suit,which drove me to the wildest of fantasies.I mentioned the possibility of marriage in my next letter,and almost immediately her replies became less frequent,less personal.
The first thing I did when I returned to the States was to call on Rachel.Her mother answered the door.Rachel no longer lived there.She had married a medical student she’d met in college.“I thought she wrote you.”her mother said.
Her“Dear John”letter finally caught up with me while I was awaiting discharge.She gently explained the impossibility of a marriage between us.Looking back on it,I must have recovered rather quickly,although for the first few months I believed I didn’t want to live.Like Rachel,I found someone else,whom I learned to love with a deep and permanent commitment that has lasted to this day.Then,recently,after an interval of more than 40 years,I heard from Rachel again.Her husband had died.She was passing through town and had learned of my whereabouts through a mutual friend.We agreed to meet.I felt both curious and excited.In the last few years,I hadn’t thought about her,and her sudden call one morning had taken me aback.The actual sight of her was a shock.This white-haired matron at the restaurant table was the Rachel of my dreams and desires,the supple mermaid of that snapshot?Yet time had given us a common reference and respect.We talked as old friends,and quickly discovered we were both grandparents.“Do you remember this?”She handed me a slip of worn paper.It was a poem I’d written her while still in school.I examined the crude meter and pallid rhymes.Watching my face,she snatched the poem from me and returned it to her purse,as though fearful I was going to destroy it.I told her about the snapshot,how I’d carried it all through the war.