喬治·吉辛/George Gissing
喬治·吉辛（1857—1903），英國小說家、散文家。出身貧寒，曾在曼徹斯特讀書，畢業後去倫敦謀生。1880年後以教書為生，同時編輯撰寫小說，內容多是描寫下層貧苦群眾，是最善於寫陰暗麵的一個作家。生前賞識他的人不多，直到20世紀，其作品的價值才漸漸為人所發掘。
Nevertheless,my life is over.
What a little thing!I knew how the philosophers had spoken;I repea ted their musical phrases about the mortal span--yet never till now beli eved them.And this is all?A man's life can be so brief and so vain?I dly would I persuade myself that life,in the true sense,is only now be ginning;that the time of sweat and fear was not life at all,and that i t now only depends upon my will to lead a worthy existence.That may be a sort of consolation,but it does not obscure the truth that I shall ne ver again see possibilities and promises opening before me.I have "reti red," and for me as truly as for the retired tradesman,life is over.I can look back upon its completed course,and what a little thing!I am t empted to laugh;I hold myself within the limit of a smile.
And that is best,to smile not in scorn,but in all forbearance,wit hout too much self-compassion.After all,that dreadful aspect of the th ing never really took hold of me;I could put it by without much effort.Life is done--and what matter?Whether it has been,in sum,painful or e njoyable,even now I cannot say--a fact which in itself should prevent m e from taking the loss too seriously.What does it matter?Destiny with the hidden face decreed that I should come into being,play my little pa rt,and pass again into silence;is it mine either to approve or to rebe l?Let me be grateful that I have suffered no intolerable wrong,no terr ible woe of flesh or spirit,such as others--alas!alas!--have found in their lot.Is it not much to have accomplished so large a part of the mo rtal journey with so much ease?If I find myself astonished at its brevi ty and small significance,why,that is my own fault;the voices of thos e gone before had sufficiently warned me.Better to see the truth now,a nd accept it,than to fall into dread surprise on some day of weakness,and foolishly to cry against fate.I will be glad rather than sorry,and think of the thing no more.